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Kindness Is Underrated

Due to the Hawking news, this afternoon… and the first fight she and her had last night.

She finally came to a new insight of life that… huft.

She used to set a high standard for whom she can fuck or get-baper with. Above all, what is it on their mind because our brain needs to be entertained all the time. We think we need an intellect partner so we won’t run out of topic in convos.

But no. It never seemed enough. Never. We always think if we deserve more.

She then came to a point that “sapiosexual” term is overrated. Oh, sure, go ahead. She had been with who we’ve called real intellect. Most of them are nothing but a bunch arrogant with narcissistic personality disorder.

And she is exhausted by the haunt of craving and desire for something more. We all are.

She knew that her lover is an intellect yet she never once thought that her lover, at the same time, is a true introvert. She pushed her too far to speak of something. She forgot that silence is the most beautiful thing.

It was her fault to crave for more two-way communications. The truth, she forgot how to appreciate the other form of her beauty. She was possessed by the craving of convos to make her feel content, knowing that she barely have a real convo with people when she herself is a loner. But it doesn’t work that way.

You don’t need a non-stop intellectual or fascinating convo with your lover.

You love, that is your responsibility.

Feeding your too-much-egos, that isn’t your lover responsibility.

We seriously need to distinguish true love and oh-so-called-love from being-egocentric but with being selfless more.

Then she finally came to her new insight of life.

“What is it that warms and moves your heart peacefully which prettier than intellectual capacity?

A heart made of gold. The one who always forgives. The one who understands. The one who accepts.

Kindness.

Kindness is underrated.

It is.”

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Keseimbangan

Jika kau adalah yin, maka aku wajib menjadi yang.

Jika kau serupa gaungan id dengan kedestruktifannya, aku lekas menjadi superego,
dan kita bercumbu di pusat
ego.

Jika kau lantas bersubmisif, akulah sang dominan penunjuk arah.

Jika kau menjelma logika, biar aku menjabat rasa.

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Kita mesti “seimbang”, agar tak “goyang”.

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Demikian juga halnya jika dua kutub selatan saling didekatkan.

Lantaran yang telah dibangun,
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Dengan secangkir kopi murahan yang masih dapat dinikmati dengan kesederhanaan, berdua menjaga nurani adalah tanggungjawab penuh,
agar jiwa enggan lagi berpeluh.

Tak boleh kita sama-sama menukik ke utara. Habislah segala. Muncullah berhala.
Tak boleh kita sama-sama turun ke selatan.
Hancurlah semua. Meraba-raba jalan yang ada.
Lalu kita menjadi tiada.

Asmara jangan biarkan lebur dalam api sengsara.
Tidak merasa cukupkah kita dengan yang sudah-sudah?
Cinta biarlah belajar tentang dirinya meski harus gagal berulang-ulang.

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di atas seprai putih, pula malam merebah lelah kuasa

kau dan aku mengabdi pada tabula rasa

 

menindih elegi dengan kecup bibir berapatis

dan geming yang bercengkerama

melupa amarah berbalik tanya

kapan kita pernah reda?

sebab tatkala tumbuh hendak memulai

hanya ada aku padamu

sedang kau patah dahan asa hingga terkulai

 

siapa paling tahu dalam senyap?

jawab!

 

mungkin aku hanya seonggok sia

dipungut kala kau menjadi segala nyeri

hingga senja usai kembali mendepak

aku sisa teriak

 

di atas seprai putih, kini malam kian mesra

aku sepi menjalin angkara

melebur esa

mereda nestapa

 

moksa.

 

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